Today I worked literally 12 hours straight. When I wasn’t actually teaching, I was driving between jobs, which I can assure you, feels nothing like time off. The funny thing is that today was one of the best days I’ve had in a long time. I started the day with a nice, slow run. Nice and slow? Yeah, I’m weird. After my experience during the Komen, I wanted to take things nice and slowly this morning. I am new to running. I need to take my time and be patient. Today, that is exactly what I did. Nothing spectacular, amazing or impressive, but I felt good the entire time, and felt like I could have gone further which makes me feel a little less scared for my 5 mile run I am planning for Saturday.
After my run, I got ready, made a smoothie to go and had a super productive day at work. I love when I finish everything I need to do and can add MORE! It never happens in my real life to do lists, so it’s a nice feeling of accomplishment when it can happen at work. Then, I went to job #2, and after a class at job 2, moved on to job #3 for the day–rehearsal! I had left my Wednesday rehearsal last week feeling slightly discouraged. Things just were not coming together the way they normally do and I felt like I had to spend a lot of time being the bad guy. I HATE that. I’m a pretty fun and silly teacher/director/choreographer and when I have to play tough guy, it makes me grumpy. BUT, and this is why I LOVE working with kids, today everything was different! It all finally came together and we felt like a team, a family, and I wanted to cry I was so happy. I put every single thing I have into my work and when my kiddos succeed, I feel like a success. When things go wrong, I take it to heart. Good or bad, I care immensely about what I do.
It’s funny, yesterday I said to John “I just want to quit. I want to choose a different career.” I was frustrated. I’ve been having a lot of frustrations that are more situational than anything else. But every time I start to feel exasperated and begin to think of other careers I could possibly pursue and still be happy–well first of all, I can never think of a single one, but second of all, something always happens that reminds me that I DON’T want to quit and that I absolutely love what I do. I just care so much that bad days are BAD days. Maybe one day I will chill the F out. Then again, this is me.
Well I have to be up in 7 hours to meet Kara for an other training one, so I guess that means it’s my bed time. I haven’t been sleeping well at all, and I’m not tired because I just got home less than an hour ago and I’m still all wound up from work, but maybe once I lay in bed, magic will happen and sleep will occur. Have a great night everyone!
PS: If you haven’t gotten a chance to read about my Whisked Away experience yet, it was pretty amazing and there are about a million pictures 🙂